Imbak para sa Agosto 2008
08-08-08
8 is my fave number so I expect this day to be uber lovely. Though it turned out NOT to be the typical great day I usually experience in such occassions and events, this day I discovered MY MISSION. Yeah, I discovered and have my mission. But before I elaborate further that “mission thingy” of mine, lemme first tell you about my thumb [specifically, my right thumb] because of the fact that my thumb got stucked in the door yesterday after I took a bath. Woah. I thought that 8 was a lucky number which means that my whole day was going to be a blast but look at what happened to me, my right thumg got numb and I can’t move it. I have a hard time writing well, holding things and even texting. Gahd! This is what you call torture. Anyway, I just placed band-aid around it to ease out the pain. Hehe.
Now, back to what I’ve told you a while ago about that mission of mine. Yesterday, I was talking with Ms. Ayan, a teacher in our school. We had a heart-to-heart talk about my rebellious classmate who doesn’t go to school already because of so many reasons and problems she have in life. This time, I love Ms. Ayan more. She made me realize things. She opened my eyes, and yes, my heart. I realized that I’m such an idiot because I only saw the negative on my classmate. I won’t tell you anymore what we’ve talking about the whole time we were together because it is something personal. I realize that was my mission—to mold her into a better person. Kailangan ko siyang tulungan papuntahin sa taas dahil matagal na siyang nasa baba. That is the task God gave me or rather, the mission God gave me.
It is really a challenge for me, actually, to be able to mold this person. That is because we both belong to two very different kinds of world. But I should be positive despite negatives. I need to be hopeful and have faith in God. He will help me “transform” my classmate. If there’s a will, there’s a way…
I wanted to apologize to her badly because in a way somehow, I judged her. I didn’t see the good in her. I didn’t have the heart to understand her. I’m so stupid. If only I supported her, then these things won’t happen. But I guess it is never too late. God gave me another chance to help her and this time, I won’t waste this opportunity. I’ll grab it and make the most out of it no matter what happens and what people might say. I’ll just do my part. That is the only thing necessary.
Add comment Agosto 8, 2008
Hay salamat!
Thanks to you, O Lord.. I already bought the things needed for my CAT attire this thursday. At last! No more pumps! Wee!
I was at the upper level of the Antipolo Public Market with my mom and my friend Naomi. For more than an hour, we searched the whole market just to buy great bargains there. We bought fatigue pants, a plain black shirt, a white handkerchief and a garrison belt. Haha! Pang-CAT na talaga ang drama ko. lol
However, I was really pissed off because of my mom. Grrrr. She’s so reklamadora and all the store owners there are looking at her badly. It’s like she is ready to make “away” with the tone of her voice and the expression of her face [Teka, naka-carabao english nako ah..ehehe. Magtagalog na nga kaya ako. Mabuti pa. 
]. It really annoys me. SOBRA. She’s always like that. She’s also very strict. Wala akong freedom tuloy. Nakakairita. Kaya hindi niyo naman ako masisisi kung di ako close sa kanya diba. Dahil rin sa ugali niya. Tapos ang hindi ko matanggap yung pinapahiya pa niya ako sa harap ng tao. Sumosobra na talaga siya. Yun pa naman ang ayaw ko sa lahat. SHE SHOULDN’T SAY THINGS THAT SHOULDN’T BE SAID. Bigyan naman niya ako ng kahit kaunting kahihiyan. I hate her.
Naku ano ba ito. Kumukulo na naman ang dugo ko. Hahahaha! Okay, back to the topic. Habang naroon pala kami ni Naomi sa palengke nang nakaupo sa parang waiting area dun sa 2nd level, syempre nagkwentuhan kami. ehehe. Aside from that, nakita namin yung teacher namin sa History [kay Naomi, Economics ata. Sakin, World History...] na si Sir Marlon. Mukhang bibili yata ng pang-ethnic niya for tomorrow sa school namin bukas. lol. Sayang nga at wala si Sir Jomar. Eh yun pa naman yung cute na teacher na pamangkin ni Sir Marlon. Ina-admire nga siya sa katunayan ng friend kong yun eh. HAHA! Pero ako hindi. Yuck. Ewan ko ba kung maraming nagkakagusto dun. Di ko type yun. Eew.
Hindi na naman pumasok ang kaklase kong b*tch. Yeah, I know what you’re thinking. Makapal ang mukha ko para sabihin yun. So ano naman? So what? She deserves those words. Pakitaan niya ako at ang lahat ng mga tao ng pagkaka-bitch, we will spit it back to her. TWICE pa. I believe in the word karma. What goes around, comes around. Hay naku. Marami pa talaga akong sasabihin sa inyong lahat about this girl pero I chose na wag na lang. Bigyan naman natin siya ng kahihiyan. Nakakaawa din naman eh. Mukhang may “mental” at “attitude” problem din kasi siya. I should have the heart naman to understand things somehow kahit na suklam na suklam nako sa leche flan na yun. Hay naku tama na nga. Dumidilim lang ang utak ko. I should be happy and enjoy life to its fullest. I shouldn’t let negatives overempower my whole being. I need to be happy and yes, be positive. Haha!
Add comment Agosto 5, 2008
Wanted: Friend T.T
Okay, It’s another lonely or rather, lonelier day for me today. T.T
I needed someone so badly to talk to right now however there are “reasonable” factors that hindered me from doing so because 1)our telephone got disconnected so I don’t have the chance to to talk to my friends about my sentiments and besides, I don’t want them to know that I’m having problems because I don’t want them to worry on me. 2) my cellphone (which I also share with my dad) has only P9.00 of load so I don’t have the chance to make “kwento” to about my concerns to my friends Liz and Raven. 3) my bestie which is my dad was drunk so I can already predict that if I would have the chance to share with him my concerns, there’s a really big chance that I will just have a senseless conversation with him that would eventually bore me for sure and 4) My mom has work today and besides, I’m not close to her. She will just judge me right away and won’t bother to listen to my whole story that would later lead to misunderstandings and conflicts that I’m always trying to avoid at all costs. So the only ones who knows what I’m feeling right now is YOU, dear reader of my post here. Thank you for being able to find time to read my entry. At least I’m already aware that someone is listening to me despite the fact that all people around me don’t have to listen to my sentiments. Thank you so much. I really appreciate it.
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